Meman- I’m sorry that you have so many issues with your neck & calcifications- sounds like there’s maybe something underlying going on, did you see a doctor when you got the MRI results, did they have any suggestions? I know quite a few members have had problems with calcium & Vit D levels giving these sorts of problems, maybe a referral to an endocrinologist might be helpful?
I’m glad that you have your faith to keep you going; have you got family or friends to help you too, & to pray with you? While I was waiting for surgery & feeling pretty grim, I read the Psalms alot, & also Isaiah 43:1,2.
And if you feel really low & need someone to talk to, there’s info on crisis lines here: Crisis/Help Line
I’ll be praying for you, & God Bless. 