I am now 25 days post op and feeling beside myself with recovery. Anxiety-ridden and uncertain over a lot of things.
I failed myself at my 2 week post op appt never once asking about all the questions I had because I truly felt good, that I was on a solid recovery path and that my questions were now somehow irrelevant. Almost immediately I regretted not asking all my questions as things regressed but figured I’d just push through and give things time to settle and all would be ok. Last week I did email and requested another option for nerve meds as the Gaba isn’t doing anything - honestly, I’m skeptical that anything else will either as Ive been down the whole list of medications path.
My incision is great, I don’t see that there’s any external surgical inflammation left. I don’t feel the lateral neck aching like I did and the ear fullness isn’t what it was.
The worst symptom - tongue/throat burning is still present as it was pre-op and shows up the minute I wake up- I’m pessimistic that this would still be a non-stop pain. I still have left sided throat burning/pressure/soreness (sorry, not sure how to describe this). I had a couple odd days where this was significantly reduced but I haven’t felt that way for well over a week. Much like pre-op, if I apply a little pressure to the incision area/where the styloid was, I can get slight relief
I read that the ear fullness and tongue/throat burning are both related to the GP nerve. My anxiety is just off the charts and I’m making myself crazy wondering if again, I had a surgery that wasn’t needed. I’m trying to find others who’s burning pre/post op ultimately went away but I’m turning up very little aside from a few who had notable improvements immediately. In fact there’s not a lot of folks with this symptom to begin with.
Because of this, I’m finding myself diving into other diagnoses that this could’ve been otherwise (ie GPN) and now wonder if “that one time I hit my head hard” if I did something bad. My CT has been looked at multiple times but was something overlooked? What do I do and who do I turn to? Can you see my craziness coming to surface? I’m losing focus/control with the constant oral pain, feeling helpless, and can’t shake all the “what ifs”.
I understand the whole bilateral/crossover/may need both sides removed potential. I haven’t convinced myself that the right side is necessary at this time as there have been zero troubles with that side and all that I have and still feel are prominent on the left. It’s hard to want to pursue that as an option when I’m thus far completely asymptomatic on the right.
How do I get through this? How do I get back on track? I truly feel lost and hate like mad to be sharing this. Im relying heavily on prayer and asking God for hope, strength and his healing hand. I sure could use some support from those who just “get it”.