Dear all,
Thank you for your answers and excuse me for my panic attack. It has been the second time this week I noticed a different noise in my right ear and it lasted hours. I was very scared.
Through this process I have always tried to manage my anxiety. Tinnitus is by far my worst symptom and I knew I had to control my anxiety. I really try but this week it has been too much. I suddenly lost my audition for a few seconds and then I have had a different noise on my right ear.
When I woke up the next morning the noise was not there. If only I knew why this happens I would be better. I cannot control it and it really scares me. It is like a phantom in my head that I don´t know when it is going to appear You know what I am talking about. This is not new for anybody. This is just that I am tired these days. Thankfully I have almost no physical pain. I feel pretty good compared to a few months ago.
I would like to describe you what I´ve been feeling these days. My tinnitus is a constant noise. It hasn´t stopped since February. It is like when you go to a concert or a disco and you stay a couple hours with loud music. When you come out you hear a beep sound in your ears. That is what I hear. Since the very first beginning I have had higher peaks that happened suddenly. These days it has been too much of it being not a louder version of the same noise but a new one only in my right ear. It means having two different noises.
I remember having the same noise of my tinnitus before but it was very low. in fact I always thought it is normal to listen at something inside your ear when you are in total silence. I remember talking about this before everything started this year. My concern is if I may have something different from ES.
When you talk about vertigo I know it is usually related with Meniere´s Disease. A lot of years ago I had a long period of vertigo. I had two strong episodes, like I couldn´t walk and stand straight. Then I had a long period with micro-episodes. I got a bit dizzy in the morning. They lasted a few seconds. Then I could do my normal life but feeling like my head was lighter. This happened for about a year when I finished University. It was like 12-13 years ago. At that time I went to the doctor. Nobody checked anything and I found no relation with my ears. Could this be related? When I went to the ENT last month I told it to her. She gave no credit to it so maybe it is not related. I really think about it now. Maybe this is just that I want to find a connection.
Right now I don´t have vertigo episodes or anything like that. This is the reason why the ENT has not checked anything else with me. She said they don´t look for nothing more if I have not vertigo. I will try to read something about Meniere. I would like to go to another ENT. I was thinking about it but I wanted to go to Barcelona next year. This week has been so scary that I don´t want to delay it anymore. I fear they will say there is nothing but symptoms are changing and getting worst. At least what is related to my ears.
I also feel another new thing. This happens for quite a few weeks. I hear like a blup sound in my left ear. It is like something moving inside. Like a bone or an air bubble moving. It can happen constantly for a few time. Then it dissapears. I also mentioned it to the ENT and again she said it was nothing.
I thought these symptoms are nothing but now… let me say I doubt it. They are more and more frequent and more scary. I know this is my mind, this is subjective, this is something I have to control in my head… but I really now what I feel. I know how I felt before. One year ago I didn´t feel my ears blocked all the time, I didn´t hear a blup or bones moving and I had no tinnitus or different sounds in my head. Something has to happen.
The maxilofacial surgeon said ES is not related with tinnitus. If there is no relation then there might be something else. I don´t want to accept nothing happens because it is happening. Symptoms are clearly changing. That is a fact to me.
I appreciate so much your answers. When I wrote last day I was home alone and scared. It was my way to say how I was feeling. Sorry if I sounded too scared or if it was inappropriate.
I will try to have an appointment with a new ENT. I have been given a new contact and I have nothing to lose. Maybe it will be just check my audition, look inside my ears and good luck, like the others but if I tell all these symptoms don´t you think they should look for something more???
I will let you know and again thank you thank you thank you. Your answers are trully a ray of light for me.
Hoping for a bright New Year 2019 for everybody. 
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